Absconding

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
I infer that my heart must learn
to live like a fragment from eternity,

because eternity doesn't ever offer
itself up to mortal understanding.

My friend said I must come
to terms with the idea of

reconciliation— that it will either happen
when it's time, or it will never happen.

What could it say when the bees
rush out of the hive, having decided

not to establish their colony? In the apiary,
ants and mites thicken the empty combs.

Fainter by the day, the odor of beeswax
on gold curtains frayed at the seams.

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What with my pipes taking half a day to unfreeze after last night’s cold snap, plus all the extra shopping I had to do to keep Christmas guests well fed, I just didn’t have the time to digest any blogs today. Hopefully a week from now things will be calm enough that I’ll be able to compile a two-week edition to close out the year. Merry/happy whatever, and I’ll see you then.

Unwish list

river in November light between bare woods and mountain

Early up and by coach (before daylight) to the Wardrobe, and took up Mr. Moore, and he and I to Chelsy to my Lord Privy Seal, and there sealed some things, he being to go out of town for all Christmas to-morrow. So back again to Westminster, and from thence by water to the Treasury Office, where I found Sir W. Pen paying off the Sophia and Griffen, and there I staid with him till noon, and having sent for some collar of beef and a mince pie, we eat and drank, and so I left him there and to my brother’s by appointment to meet Prior, but he came not, so I went and saw Mrs. Turner who continues weak, and by and by word was brought me that Prior’s man was come to Tom’s, and so I went and told out 128l. which I am to receive of him, but Prior not coming I went away and left the money by his desire with my brother all night, and they to come to me to-morrow morning. So I took coach, and lighting at my bookseller’s in Paul’s Churchyard, I met with Mr. Crumlum and the second master of Paul’s School, and thence I took them to the Starr, and there we sat and talked, and I had great pleasure in their company, and very glad I was of meeting him so accidentally, I having omitted too long to go to see him. Here in discourse of books I did offer to give the school what books he would choose of 5l. So we parted, and I home, and to Mr. Selden, and then to bed.

war for Christmas again
with some pie

and the weak old light
of a star


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 23 December 1661.

Gathering

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
"All things of the world are bowing   
or being taken away." ~ Linda Gregg



What do I know of being chosen
in order to be branded, sold,
gutted, instead of merely left
behind? In the branches of the fig
tree, its limbs skeletal in winter,
crows conduct their own cold
symphonies. They are good
at surveillance. They descend,
dark cloud knocking on roofs; and I
imagine every worm of kindness grows
still in the soil. Neighbors bring out
an industry of leaf-blowers. The tree
whispers, there's no end to what
we'll gather into bags today.

Ever mind

Sam Pepys and me

To church in the morning, where the Reader made a boyish young sermon. Home to dinner, and there I took occasion, from the blacknesse of the meat as it came out of the pot, to fall out with my wife and my maid for their sluttery, and so left the table, and went up to read in Mr. Selden till church time, and then my wife and I to church, and there in the pew, with the rest of the company, was Captain Holmes, in his gold-laced suit, at which I was troubled because of the old business which he attempted upon my wife. So with my mind troubled I sat still, but by and by I took occasion from the rain now holding up (it raining when we came into the church) to put my wife in mind of going to the christening (which she was invited to) of N. Osborne’s child, which she did, and so went out of the pew, and my mind was eased. So home after sermon and there came by appointment Dr. T. Pepys, Will. Joyce, and my brother Tom, and supped with me, and very merry they were, and I seemed to be, but I was not pleased at all with their company. So they being gone we went to bed.

the blackness of a pot
is old business

holding rain my mind
is born anew


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 22 December 1661.

Scrooge

Sam Pepys and me

To White Hall to the Privy Seal, where my Lord Privy Seal did tell us he could seal no more this month, for that he goes thirty miles out of town to keep his Christmas. At which I was glad, but only afeard lest any thing of the King’s should force us to go after him to get a seal in the country.
Thence to Westminster Hall (having by the way drank with Mrs. Sarah and Mrs. Betty at my Lord’s lodgings), and thence taken by some Exchequer men to the Dogg, where, being St. Thomas’s day, by custom they have a general meeting at dinner. There I was and all very merry, and there I spoke to Mr. Falconberge to look whether he could out of Domesday Book, give me any thing concerning the sea, and the dominion thereof; which he says he will look after. Thence taking leave to my brothers, and there by appointment met with Prior of Brampton who had money to pay me, but desiring some advice he stays till Monday. So by coach home to the office, where I was vexed to see Sir Williams both seem to think so much that I should be a little out of the way, saying that without their Register they were not a Committee, which I took in some dudgeon, and see clearly that I must keep myself at a little distance with them and not crouch, or else I shall never keep myself up even with them. So home and wrote letters by the post. This evening my wife come home from christening Mrs. Hunt’s son, his name John, and a merchant in Mark Lane came along with her, that was her partner. So after my business was done, and read something in Mr. Selden, I went to bed.

I keep Christmas
with all the others
on ice

keep my distance
keep myself even
with the evening


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 21 December 1661.

Things I Can’t Change

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
~ after Sei Shonagon


All I have no influence over,
what I can't control: nerve
pain shooting down my right hip
and thigh at night. Pencil strokes
of grey outlining my hairline.
The way my mind climbs up a never-
ending stairway whose end I can't
see, except I know it's still
a long way off, cloaked in mist
and overhung with rocks. The way it
tries to reverse direction, believing
it will come, with patience, to the point
before everything changed, before a rift
in the earth made mosaics in every wall.

Devastation

Sam Pepys and me

Lay long in bed, and then up, and so to the Wardrobe to dinner, and from thence out with Mr. Moore towards my house, and in our way met with Mr. Swan (my old acquaintance), and we to a tavern, where we had enough of his old simple religious talk, and he is still a coxcomb in these things as he ever wasand tells me he is setting out a book called “The unlawfull use of lawfull things;” but a very simple fellow he is, and so I leave him. So we drank and at last parted, and Mr. Moore and I into Cornhill, it being dark night, and in the street and on the Exchange discoursed about Dominion of the Sea, wherein I am lately so much concerned, and so I home and sat late up reading of Mr. Selden, and so to bed.

in the war my house
of sand is unlawful

awful as the street
and the dominion of the sea


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 20 December 1661.

Oolong

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Centuries ago, the moon fell
in love with a comet which blazed

then burned away into nothing. I
don't know if this is true. Perhaps,

even now, no one notices her plain but
beautiful countenance. Tea leaves darken

in their little gauze tent, and the water
begins to amber. Why should I feel ashamed

to write about such a small pleasure? Shawls
of milky fog wrap around the mountains.

In the norning, tea-pickers gather withered
leaves for steaming and drying, and marvel:

the merest brush with heat blooms a little
film of joy that spreads on your tongue.