Second syllable of what was once my name, now used only by the bank, by the government, and by certain few women who insist on it: you are like the necktie I long ago forgot how to fasten. No, scratch that. You are like that great bulb of an Adam’s apple I sported before my neck widened and absorbed it. I and D, you make me trochaic. You turn me into my ancestor, that quiet boy I suspect that I, as a Dave, would’ve hated, because he thought he was special, and not in the short-bus kind of way. A David. God’s favorite sociopath, going buck-wild in front of the ark: no David is ever quite free of that chaos, that cauldron, that id.
But Dave? A name without promise or poetry. Every Tom, Dick and Harry is named Dave now, you say — but that’s precisely the point. It was only when I freed myself of the i.d. that I started to discover who all I might become.
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It’s fascinating that you seem to locate this “ID” as appendages or coverings for that place in your neck where your voice originates.
Yeah, I don’t know what was up with that. Maybe a voice reference, maybe the frog-in-my-throat idea.
without id, you can’t drive, buy beer, borrow books, fight wars or vote. I guess you could easily live without it…you almost do.
enjoyed your thoughts here.
You can do ALL those things without id.
T.
Take it up with Freud, you two.