When the city they live in is almost completely destroyed

It’s funny how sharp things seem just before
the moment of calamity announces itself—

The ring of dried toothpaste making the cap
difficult to unscrew, the fact she’s carried

a different purse to work and so doesn’t have
the money she needs to buy a pack of diapers

for the baby. The smell of correction fluid
drying on stencil paper as she steps into

the office next door. Next, her buckling knees,
the billowing heave from somewhere deeper

than asphalt, the ominous grating of the earth.
They run out into the open, away from falling

pillars. Across the city, the sound a wave
makes, breaking a hundred windows. Streams

of people reeling in terror and disbelief:
men clutching their trousers from having lost

control of their bowels, women at full term
going into spontaneous labor on the sidewalk.

In the days and nights that follow, children
crying for their parents; tent cities in parks

pummeled by rain, plunged in mud. The kindness
of strangers bringing plywood sheets for beds,

newspapers for warmth. The morning she joins
a queue, the man and his son handing out bread

and dented canned goods through an opening
in the rubble that used to be a grocery store.

The lift a couple gives her, out looking for water
and gas, news of where to get batteries, first aid

supplies. In a jeepney, an old woman holds up
two army blankets that were thrown over

some corpses on the road: she says they’re thick
and warm and the dead won’t need them anymore

where they’ve gone. In the surreal twilight
she sees them— mile after mile, stacked

in rows. Light flares from distant rescue
vehicles, agonizing slowness of arrival.

It is more than five days before they find enough
coffins, enough graves, for all the newly dead.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Terrorists under the bed.

Revolution

Early I went to Mr. Crew’s, and having given Mr. Edward money to give the servants, I took him into the coach that waited for us and carried him to my house, where the coach waited for me while I and the child went to Westminster Hall, and bought him some pictures. In the Hall I met Mr. Woodfine, and took him to Will’s and drank with him. Thence the child and I to the coach, where my wife was ready, and so we went towards Twickenham. In our way, at Kensington we understood how that my Lord Chesterfield had killed another gentleman about half an hour before, and was fled. We went forward and came about one of the clock to Mr. Fuller’s, but he was out of town, so we had a dinner there, and I gave the child 40s. to give to the two ushers.
After that we parted and went homewards, it being market day at Brainford. I set my wife down and went with the coach to Mr. Crew’s, thinking to have spoke with Mr. Moore and Mrs. Jane, he having told me the reason of his melancholy was some unkindness from her after so great expressions of love, and how he had spoke to her friends and had their consent, and that he would desire me to take an occasion of speaking with her, but by no means not to heighten her discontent or distaste whatever it be, but to make it up if I can.
But he being out of doors, I went away and went to see Mrs. Jem, who was now very well again, and after a game or two at cards, I left her. So I went to the Coffee Club, and heard very good discourse; it was in answer to Mr. Harrington’s answer, who said that the state of the Roman government was not a settled government, and so it was no wonder that the balance of propriety was in one hand, and the command in another, it being therefore always in a posture of war; but it was carried by ballot, that it was a steady government, though it is true by the voices it had been carried before that it was an unsteady government; so to-morrow it is to be proved by the opponents that the balance lay in one hand, and the government in another.
Thence I went to Westminster, and met Shaw and Washington, who told me how this day Sydenham was voted out of the House for sitting any more this Parliament, and that Salloway was voted out likewise and sent to the Tower, during the pleasure of the House.
Home and wrote by the Post, and carried to Whitehall, and coming back turned in at Harper’s, where Jack Price was, and I drank with him and he told me, among other, things, how much the Protector is altered, though he would seem to bear out his trouble very well, yet he is scarce able to talk sense with a man; and how he will say that “Who should a man trust, if he may not trust to a brother and an uncle;” and “how much those men have to answer before God Almighty, for their playing the knave with him as they did.” He told me also, that there was; 100,000l. offered, and would have been taken for his restitution, had not the Parliament come in as they did again; and that he do believe that the Protector will live to give a testimony of his valour and revenge yet before he dies, and that the Protector will say so himself sometimes.
Thence I went home, it being late and my wife in bed.

I kill an hour at cards
an unsteady government
in one hand

and in another the vote
like a harp altered to answer God
as he dies


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 17 January 1659/60. (See the original erasure.)

Oversight

To the Duke’s to-day, but he is gone a-hunting, and therefore I to my Lord Sandwich’s, and having spoke a little with him about his businesses, I to Westminster Hall and there staid long doing many businesses, and so home by the Temple and other places doing the like, and at home I found my wife dressing by appointment by her woman that I think is to be, and her other sister being here to-day with her and my wife’s brother, I took Mr. Creed, that came to dine, to an ordinary behind the Change, and there dined together, and after dinner home and there spent an hour or two till almost dark, talking with my wife, and making Mrs. Gosnell sing; and then, there being no coach to be got, by water to White Hall; but Gosnell not being willing to go through bridge, we were forced to land and take water, again, and put her and her sister ashore at the Temple. I am mightily pleased with her humour and singing. At White Hall by appointment, Mr. Creed carried my wife and I to the Cockpitt, and we had excellent places, and saw the King, Queen, Duke of Monmouth, his son, and my Lady Castlemaine, and all the fine ladies; and “The Scornfull Lady,” well performed. They had done by eleven o’clock, and it being fine moonshine, we took coach and home, but could wake nobody at my house, and so were fain to have my boy get through one of the windows, and so opened the door and called up the maids, and went to supper and to bed, my mind being troubled at what my wife tells me, that her woman will not come till she hears from her mother, for I am so fond of her that I am loth now not to have her, though I know it will be a great charge to me which I ought to avoid, and so will make it up in other things. So to bed.

sand castle
a fine moon but no windows
to have it


Erasure haiku derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 17 November 1662.

Terms of Engagement

Can you be stunningly inventive,
linguistically eclectic, unflinchingly brave

but still grounded in the necessary and sustaining?

The reflecting pool surrounded by the beautiful
well-manicured lawn is flanked by the verticality
of cypress trees and liveried servants.

Evenings when the sky is clear and delicate
as a flute of blown glass, voices carry
through the air. Tonight, over the barely

audible hum of the electric fence,
someone is reading a poem threaded with bodies
and explosions, the words our shared

humanity snaking through like a dark skin,
like a cloudy vapor, like a distant glacier
unsheared, melting soon into the sea.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Grave.

Grave

(Lord’s day). About 3 o’clock in the morning waked with a rude noise among Sir J. Minnes his servants (he not being yet come to his lodgings), who are the rudest people but they that lived before, one Mrs. Davis, that ever I knew in my life.
To sleep again, and after long talking pleasantly with my wife, up and to church, where Mrs. Goodyer, now Mrs. Buckworth, was churched. I love the woman for her gravity above any in the parish. So home and to dinner with my wife with great content, and after dinner walked up and down my house, which is now almost finished, there being nothing to do but the glazier and furniture to put up. By and by comes Tom, and after a little talk I with him towards his end, but seeing many strangers and coaches coming to our church, and finding that it was a sermon to be preached by a probationer for the Turkey Company, to be sent to Smyrna, I returned thither. And several Turkey merchants filled all the best pews (and some in ours) in the Church, but a most pitiful sermon it was upon a text in Zachariah, and a great time he spent to show whose son Zachary was, and to prove Malachi to be the last prophet before John the Baptist.
Home and to see Sir W. Pen, who gets strength, but still keeps his bed. Then home and to my office to do some business there, and so home to supper and to bed.

I love gravity above
any lazier talk

war is a strange church
it filled all the pews

in time to prove
the last prophet of ice


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 16 November 1662.

Terrorists under the bed

In the morning I went up to Mr. Crew’s, and at his bedside he gave me direction to go to-morrow with Mr. Edward to Twickenham, and likewise did talk to me concerning things of state; and expressed his mind how just it was that the secluded members should come to sit again. I went from thence, and in my way went into an alehouse and drank my morning draft with Matthew Andrews and two or three more of his friends, coachmen. And of one of them I did hire a coach to carry us to-morrow to Twickenham.
From thence to my office, where nothing to do; but Mr. Downing he came and found me all alone; and did mention to me his going back into Holland, and did ask me whether I would go or no, but gave me little encouragement, but bid me consider of it; and asked me whether I did not think that Mr. Hawly could perform the work of my office alone or no. I confess I was at a great loss, all the day after, to bethink myself how to carry this business.
At noon, Harry Ethall came to me and went along with Mr. Maylard by coach as far as Salsbury Court, and there we set him down, and we went to the Clerks, where we came a little too late, but in a closet we had a very good dinner by Mr. Pinkny’s courtesy, and after dinner we had pretty good singing, and one, Hazard, sung alone after the old fashion, which was very much cried up, but I did not like it.
Thence we went to the Green Dragon, on Lambeth Hill, both the Mr. Pinkney’s, Smith, Harrison, Morrice, that sang the bass, Sheply and I, and there we sang of all sorts of things, and I ventured with good success upon things at first sight, and after that I played on my flageolet, and staid there till nine o’clock, very merry and drawn on with one song after another till it came to be so late.
After that Sheply, Harrison and myself, we went towards Westminster on foot, and at the Golden Lion, near Charing Cross, we went in and drank a pint of wine, and so parted, and thence home, where I found my wife and maid a-washing.
I staid up till the bell-man came by with his bell just under my window as I was writing of this very line, and cried, “Past one of the clock, and a cold, frosty, windy morning.” I then went to bed, and left my wife and the maid a-washing still.

bed like a state
with no land but the ink
of a great loss

all the clerks in a closet
and the much-cried green dragon
just under this very line


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 16 January 1659/60. (See the original erasure.)

Hydroponics

In the farmer’s market every Saturday until early fall, there’s a vendor who brings greens grown in air gardens: baby romaine, streaked and tufted mizuna, curly frisée, bitter arugula. You’re supposed to wreath them on hand-fired raku platters, make a half moon smear out of a little oil or dressing, grant a little crumbled snowfall of cheese and pepitas… Not one vivid green spear has touched the loamy soil, has had to push a tender tip through rude gravel. My father and uncles used to tell stories of how they foraged in the fields as boys during the war: shoots and vines, hard berries, snails and frogs that gathered in shallow pools at night to voice their own brand of discontent with the world. Sometimes, with makeshift slingshots they disappeared into the wood, shading their eyes against filtered light, waiting for coveys of quail: everything ripe candidate for that fractal, bottomless hunger. Bow your head to the heart of the bowl. Raise your cracked glass and drink the gleaming sludge at the bottom. Thank the chain that’s come to spiral down to its end so that you might begin again.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Modern times.

Medium

In the middle of the spy thriller, the girl
companion trussed up in the back, mouth
duct-taped, tries to use her rapidly blinking eyes
to tell the agent she is receiving urgent messages
from the dead. But of course he doesn’t notice,
preoccupied as he is with wrestling the plane’s
controls from the heavyset man wearing a gold
pinky ring in the shape of a skull. The engine
catches fire and they begin to fall. It is always
most picturesque at such moments: cold sweep
of tree-lined mountains, and beyond their border,
cities of glass lit up with the glow of fire-
bombs, the dull sound of bridges detonating.
What are those smoke-like shapes lifting
from the ground if not the souls of the once
sentient, now gone? Smell of burnt clove eerie
in the streets where every hand made
the universal gesture of a plea.

 

In response to Via Negativa: TV dinner.

Quietist

Having been exceedingly disturbed in the night with the barking of a dog of one of our neighbours that I could not sleep for an hour or two, I slept late, and then in the morning took physic, and so staid within all day.
At noon my brother John came to me, and I corrected as well as I could his Greek speech to say the Apposition, though I believe he himself was as well able to do it as myself. After that we went to read in the great Officiale about the blessing of bells in the Church of Rome.
After that my wife and I in pleasant discourse till night, then I went to supper, and after that to make an end of this week’s notes in this book, and so to bed.
It being a cold day and a great snow my physic did not work so well as it should have done.

having been the barking dog
that could not sleep

I believe as well as a bell
in the discourse of snow


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 15 January 1659/60. (See the original erasure.)

Living art

All the morning at the office sitting, dined with my wife pleasantly at home, then among my painters, and by and by went to my Civil Lawyers about my uncle’s suit, and so home again and saw my painters make an end of my house this night, which is my great joy, and so to my office and did business till ten at night, and so home and to supper, and after reading part of Bussy d’Ambois, a good play I bought to-day, to bed.

the painter went home and saw paint

his night is my night
an art I ought to be


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 15 November 1662.