after the low-pitched whine and rumbling the sound
of a snapped belt the machine winds down
from spinning to a long pause
the clerk at the store files her nails idly
she doesn't seem to want to be there
but there's nobody else on the floor
and we want a replacement for what just broke
we say we need before they turn the sign
over from open to closed
she clicks on her computer and scrolls
the catalog of many possible desires or needs
i may be old- fashioned but i can't
or won't be brought to saying want without
its immediate object can't say for instance
the want in my heart or in my hollow
bones come on, say the neon lights
they blink to fire up that old knowing
engine called desire why can't we just
call it that, desire for i can't bring
myself to say my want for this condition
or for what brings me to the crest frothing
like laundry before the spin cycle then spent, limp
i want is different from my wants the latter
seems both coy and brazen ungrammarly i'll
cringe if you tell me my wants are selfish they seem
like someone else being described wouldn't you
rather claim and proclaim what it is exactly you desire