After the earthquake, we fixed then sold the damaged house in order to pay off the housing loan. It had been built on a strip of land right next to my father's— next to the home of my girlhood to which I returned with my children after we lost everything. Every time I walked down the road toward our gate, I could see through the front window the awful dark stain the new owners had put on walls that used to be warm, honeyed wood. I cried over the loss of the. west-facing view from the second floor, the dark-leaved avocado tree in the back. We'd pushed our beds under the low eaves so we could paddle more quickly into dreams: one night, held in such deep sleep beneath a curtain of rain, we were spared the sounds of burglars jimmying a kitchen window open, then running away with a toaster and a boombox they didn't know was broken. Someone is always saying you don't realize what you miss until it's lost or taken— the way you might look at a telephone and imagine the shadow of a cord coiling away from the receiver; the shape of a bell that used to swing at the end of a rope and that someone climbed a tower every morning in order to ring.