Reclining on a pincushion, your needle eyes tethered to their fine threads of dream, how extravagant were you, my siren! A movable feast of wreckage brought the best jetsam, ship bellies opening on the reef, releasing their cargo into the current. Yet we fish in your waters still, drawn by the roar and hiss of surf, applicants for permanent residence in the flow state. Our ships carry factories; our nets are vast and drag weights that brutalize the unseen depths. Our earplugs are made of old age and apostasy. I sing sometimes in the shower, under my breath.
All winter in your garden the tea rose went on blooming even with the sun so cold and distant. I didn’t realize I was on a pilgrimage until I arrived, still dripping and possibly drowned from crossing the river/channel/sea. You slept like an officiant, giving yourself up to dreams you knew you’d forget the moment you awoke. From time to time your mouthparts moved as if in speech. I eventually relocated to the garden and became its folly. When the sun appeared, I tried to trace my shadow’s outline on the flagstones with chalk, but it wouldn’t stay still. This is what it means to live on nothing.
I thought I was in a forest but there were no birds and no trees, only the long shadows of the bars in my cage. I walk for miles without leaving my cell: the cellphone in my pocket makes sure of that. Beyond the visible bars are the stronger, invisible ones, guarded by angels and demons. But any noise a voice box can make is no match for the average syrinx, whether of a wood thrush or a bittern: the dinosaurs that escaped extinction have a laugh for every cry and a cry for every laugh. It was they who guided us when it mattered, not that supple bride the soul. They whose annual return from another world made us leave room for the miraculous.
I thought I was in a forest again but it was only people with their fists in the air. They swayed in a wind that didn’t speak English and fell in a rain of bombs. I plant myself in a likely sidewalk crack and dedicate the rest of my life to wordless prayer.
—It’s a grim age for pilgrimage. The waters of ablution bloom with blue-green algae. But even the fastest Baptist would find this torrent abhorrent.
—Oh don’t be shellfish and mussel your way into the shoals! It’s simply unseemly. Surely the river doesn’t need another drowned voice.
—But the water is getting away; it must be stopped! This canyon would be so much more accommodating if it harbored a peaceful lake. The spirit could find herself there, in those still waters, gazing back.