Wu-wei

Sam Pepys and me

Musique, then my brother Tom came, and spoke to him about selling of Sturtlow, he consents to, and I think will be the best for him, considering that he needs money, and has no mind to marry.
Dined at home, and at the office in the afternoon. So home to musique, my mind being full of our alteracons in the garden, and my getting of things in the office settled to the advantage of my clerks, which I found Mr. Turner much troubled at, and myself am not quiet in mind. But I hope by degrees to bring it to it. At night begun to compose songs, and begin with “Gaze not on Swans.” So to bed.

a ring needs
no mind to marry
a home
no mind to age

I found no mind
to compose so I gaze
on swans


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 11 February 1661/62.

Having Been Born, to Live

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Years later, she remembered how inconsolably
the baby cried, how nothing could soothe except

bouncing the mattress nonstop. She'd lock
both of them in the room, away from others

disturbed by the wail of misfortune issuing
out of the mouth of one so young. But was it

indeed misfortune? What of a life might have
pointed to its development, when the sound

of a window opening or closing was not even
a thing of portent? What is it we mean when

we say May you have a good life? Not that agony
might never visit your door, nor the wish you

might never know the pain of monumental loss.
Perhaps, only that you might live, despite.

Time keeping

Sam Pepys and me

Musique practice a good while, then to Paul’s Churchyard, and there I met with Dr. Fuller’s “England’s Worthys,” the first time that I ever saw it; and so I sat down reading in it, till it was two o’clock before I thought of the time going, and so I rose and went home to dinner, being much troubled that (though he had some discourse with me about my family and arms) he says nothing at all, nor mentions us either in Cambridgeshire or Norfolk. But I believe, indeed, our family were never considerable.
At home all the afternoon, and at night to bed.

a fuller clock
before time
going in our arms

us folk
in our never
considerable night


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 10 February 1661/62.

Joking

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Once, as I explained 
the difference between
tercets and triplets
(three lines that rhyme),
a student shared that she
was one of triplets. I joked,
Which one of you is here? I think
it might not have landed; I'm not
really very good at humor, though
sometimes a thought or a word
comes to me that seems amusing.
It's all in the timing, say some
friends. I may not be very good
at that either. I hope you
won't take it against me.

Service

Sam Pepys and me

(Lord’s day). I took physique this day, and was all day in my chamber, talking with my wife about her laying out of 20l., which I had long since promised her to lay out in clothes against Easter for herself, and composing some ayres, God forgive me!
At night to prayers and to bed.

Lord’s day and I
am talking her out
of her clothes

for some air
for prayer


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 9 February 1661/62.

Law of Dialectics

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Yeah why not. Let's go somewhere in a dark 
automobile at the speed of dreaming, purpose

or no purpose. Sometimes, like now, I get
tired of pondering the sustainability

of survival as a kind of heroism. How long
did you say it took the Praetorian guards

to deliver the heads of their tyrant masters?
There are sons described as having faces

only their mothers could love, yet their mothers
(and even sisters) come forward to testify about

the cruelty of these men. Can you imagine how
that kind of rejection must drive them crazy,

behind their mask of stony indifference? The world
is no more theirs than anyone else's. Their kind

of darkness, small and mean and selfish, is not even
anything compared to that more elemental darkness which,

it is said, precedes the time before the subjugated world
tears off its blinders, so the pendulum can arc to another end.

Coalfaced

river in November light between bare woods and mountain

All the morning in the cellar with the colliers, removing the coles out of the old cole hole into the new one, which cost me 8s. the doing; but now the cellar is done and made clean, it do please me exceedingly, as much as any thing that was ever yet done to my house. I pray God keep me from setting my mind too much upon it.
About 3 o’clock the colliers having done I went up to dinner (my wife having often urged me to come, but my mind is so set upon these things that I cannot but be with the workmen to see things done to my mind, which if I am not there is seldom done), and so to the office, and thence to talk with Sir W. Pen, walking in the dark in the garden some turns, he telling me of the ill management of our office, and how Wood the timber merchant and others were very knaves, which I am apt to believe.
Home and wrote letters to my father and my brother John, and so to bed. Being a little chillish, intending to take physique to-morrow morning.

out of the old coal hole
the colliers done with work

walk in the dark
home to another hill


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 8 February 1661/62.

Moments of Happiness 5: swarm

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
This entry is part 5 of 6 in the series Moments of Happiness

 

Orion festoons
the bare and crooked branches
of a black walnut

the light of the crescent
moon is as weak
as an old man’s piss

from over the ridge
the interstate highway
roars and thunders

it’s tranquility with jake brakes
the moon passing
behind contrails

for a moment i too
long to go somewhere
in a dark automobile

at the speed of dreaming
as full of purpose
as a swarm of bees

Why We Should Care

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
The stump of a tree cut down years ago, finally 
softened, has become host to mycelia

Sometimes the smell of grilled meat floats over these houses

On the news tonight, hundreds of dairy cows infected with avian flu

My eye doctor tells me the names of chickens she keeps— Betsy, Trixie, Daisy; one shares the name of one of my daughters

Mornings, just before my husband wakes me, I lose the thread of
a dream

One weekend we buy a tub of pork blood; I wonder why the label
is pork blood instead of pig blood but we will make
a traditional stew

I like "very hard" crosswords; they have interesting
words like abscissa

When I slap a mosquito sucking on the skin of my shoulder, I wonder
if the blood is mine or someone else's

We're all part of the same cellular network

It is the year of the snake and some have taken power
that isn't theirs

Every spore, every bloodstained stone, every word we protect
and won't give surender

Look at the moths that arrow night after night
into basins of uncollected light