Category: Poems & poem-like things

Such a curious word— breathtaking. To take
one's breath. Away. One can take precautions,

take five, take advice, take note; take pity,
take hostage... I too am floored by moments

called breathtaking. It can take so little for
that catch of breath in the throat. It's as though 

a finger presses lightly inward at the hollow 
center of your collarbone. And yes, all of us 

have lost and grieved our dead. But recently, 
I heard someone say that those who've wilfully 

cut ties with us have also become as if dead. 
That's the kind of grief I've been carrying, 

since my firstborn stopped speaking to me
nearly four years ago now. But doesn't loss

imply a previous ownership; or if not ownership,
then a belonging? I grieve too over my inability

to lift the longsuffering of others I love, 
whether from mental illness or anxiety or just

the everyday bludgeoning by life. On a train, 
in a coach where the seats face away from 

the direction it's headed, I watch the landscape 
recede as if toward the past. Out here in rural 

Virginia, horses and cows against brilliant 
green; then hulls of houses gone to ruin 

followed by rows of boxy apartments and squares 
of parking lots. Back home, there's an amateur 

telescope which we haven't used because of light
pollution. Here, I imagine nights unroll a dark

that could be truer dark. Nightfall means the onset
of night. But can I also think of it as the fall of

night? The fall of those forces which cloud our joy,
leave nothing warm even in spaces of abundant silence.  

If you’ve frequented those cafes where lately the cappuccinos
are topped by swirls resembling dragons from fantasy novels,
you might have heard it said that Godzilla lives in the center
of the earth. And if you happened to order a Reuben sandwich
with a side of pickle, you might have been told that certain
brands of sour chili pickle get their distinct flavor from salt
harvested from those places Godzilla’s feet have touched.
I used to think this was just the kind of story that’s spit
out of gumball machines with no real gumballs— just hollow
rubber spheres that hide little strips of paper on which some
poor soul chained to a basement wall in what used to be a fortune
cookie company is still writing fortunes (or are they cries for help?)
that are not fortunes, but banal sayings like “Life is what you make it”
or “A good heart is the center of the family—” which by the way
is also hogwash, since we all know that mitochondria are
the engines of the cell. but never has any science existed
that could predict whether you’d wind up in a dysfunctional
family or in one that wore identical smiles and color
coordinated clothing for special photo shoots each new
season of the year. But recently I put a gumball into my mouth
and bit down on a claw of bristly dark green jade. It tasted
simultaneously of roasted coconuts and the sea. 

actively proactive for the self

bootstraps are for tying

call a spade a spade, won't you?

don't pay full price but

eat all you can 

first one to finish

gets the girl and a pre-nup

happy is an old-fashioned state of mind

i don't know that there's anything to be

justly miserable about 

keep your own people in check but

love me those noodles and coconut juice

my mama's apple pie and sugar donuts

nobody's business but my business

o say can you see how beaten and

purple the skies at night how un- 

quietly the colors protest but i

rob you blind and still you love me

suspension states are indefinite 

taxes and other lucrative sources of wealth

u better believe the hype or else

vainglorious (alleged) victors?

we don't see ourselves as

xenophobic

you are xenophobic we aim to be

zillionaires

The way the river looks on windy days 
(we live a block away): white-capped, 
indigo-lined. Along its horizon, 

birds make V-formations, like someone 
inked them fast. The blur— illusion of
the years. To the left, rows of ship-

to-shore cranes resemble those all 
terrain armored walkers in Star Wars. 
These are, of course, for large

container ships hauling cargo to
the international terminal. I know time
sometimes is like a wading bird standing 

perfectly still on one leg in the shallows. 
Other times it is the clean dart of its beak, 
spearing a target beneath the surface. 

Yesterday my therapist told me I should go 
ahead and lean fully into my grief (this too 
has its own understory), so it might 

loosen by degrees. It's waterlogged, tight 
as a monkey's fist or heaving knot for casting 
rope from ship to ship or ship to shore. 

When I was in first grade, I used to have 
recurring dreams in which I hovered a few inches 
above a sheet which turned into a quiet billowing 

sea. I don't have them anymore, only the images 
fixed in memory. But I recognize the attitude: 
listening for a hush that isn't complete 

silence— filled instead with insinuations 
of sound and movement. Isn't this too 
a kind of reading, and the rippling a kind 

of poetry? Yes, I think these are some forms 
that help us. Or spirits, if that's how you want 
to name them. Dreams, for sure. But there's 

got to be something in you which knew it wanted 
to turn its face in that direction, which wanted 
to follow. How else could we have gotten here?